Archive | October, 2013

A heart fully surrendered to God

24 Oct

I was raised in a church, was part of the choir, served on the altar as an altar girl, was active in the youth group but my walk in church as a child was religious and not spiritual. By that, I mean we did things out of tradition, not Spiritual hunger. It took many years of making some really poor choices and hard lessons for me to learn that my walk needed to be based on a close relationship with Jesus, God’s son and not on traditions that were made up by man.

In late Nov. 1990(could have been 91-I’m not sure) my sister Amy took me to an Aglow International Conference in Orlando, FL-it was there that I responded to an altar call and asked Jesus to come into my heart. I would love to tell you that I immediately changed, grabbed onto my Bible and the Word of God and lived a life glorifying God but sadly that is not what happened. When I came home I had no one to disciple me-I didn’t even know I needed to be discipled.
At the time I accepted Jesus, I was married to an abusive alcoholic. I was bound and determined to “fix” him so as many times that he left and went to live with his mother after a really bad, violent, drunk, I took him back thinking that if I just loved him enough he would change. That didn’t happen-you can not love someone to change, only God can change a person in that miraculous way. While I was married to this man, I made many poor choices that affected my daughter as I have written about in previous blogs. She no longer talks to me and that initially devastated me but now I know that God is using this time to mold me and show me that it is HIS love that matters most. In the old testament we are told how Abraham was asked to sacrifice Issac and because of his obedience, his willingness to sacrifice his only son, God spared Issac and provided another sacrifice.(Gen 22:1-14) I know in my heart by accepting this time away from my beautiful daughter that this is a sacrifice I am making to God. This is a sacrifice I willing to make in order to fully accept and live in God’s unconditional love. It has been a long journey-this journey to accept God’s unconditional love but one that I no longer regret. It took a women’s conference in Nov 2010–yes almost 30 years wandering in the desert-to let the wall that separated me from God’s grace and love to come down. Today I know my redeemer lives in my heart, loves me and because of that love that he so freely gives I serve HIM in anyway He asks. I used to do things because I was asked to do it. I thought it was expected of me. If I didn’t do it-who would? I feared that if I said no someone would not like me or gossip about me. Now I know if those things happen that I need to pray for those who persecute me.( Matt 5:44) Today, all that matters is “What is God calling me to do?” I am a sold out yes girl for Jesus. Does that mean I am fully confident and equipped to do what he calls me to do? Absolutely NOT! I have come to understand that God does not call the equipped but instead equips the called. The only thing I need to do is say “YES LORD” and he does the rest. Each day, through His Word, love, Holy Spirit guidance and the wonderful women He has put in my life I am becoming more and more equipped to do what He has called me to do. My sweet sister’s don’t let 30 years of knowing about God happen, you can KNOW HIM now, if you will let him. Bask in His unconditional love-there is nothing that can separate you–nothing you’ve done in the past, your failings today nor those you and I will undoubtedly do in the future-nothing can separate us from the love of God.(Romans 8:31-39).
He loves you! If you do not know Jesus in this way please take a moment and ask Him into your heart, Believe that he died on the cross for your sins and Confess that He is Lord of all and I promise He is waiting with open arms. He loved you before you were even born and still loves you today. Won’t you accept His unconditional love today? I am so happy I did and would like to be the first to say “welcome home”. If you asked this today would you please comment and let me know? I’d love to partner with you in prayer as you begin to know the love of God in a deeper way. God Bless you today and always!


Prince of Peace

5 Oct

This past week in our Proverbs 31 OnLine Bible Study we have been studying Mary, the mother of Jesus. In doing so, we also delved into the meanings of some of the names that describe the character of God. The one that stands out to me is Prince of Peace. My husband and I are a long way from being perfect or being characterized as the perfect example of a “Christian” couple but we both have a tremendous love for Jesus and that love for Jesus has enabled us to have peace in our marriage, hearts and home. I can honestly say that, while we do not agree all the time, we never have ugly fights. I know this is not anything we can do in and of ourselves. Before Christ became the center of my life, I was a very contentious person. If something ruffled my feathers everyone knew it and I would not let anything go. I thank God that my husband has a deep love for me and would not feed into my temporary insanity. He would not allow my ugliness to affect our marriage. Now, I am able to let things go and know, in my heart, that God is in control no matter what circumstances look like. I did not realize until this week that the reason for this is because I have developed a deep relationship with the “Prince of Peace”. I am created in His image (Gen 1:27) and I have the mind of Christ (1 Corinth 2:16) so it occurs to me that if I am created in His image and I have the mind of Christ that IF I keep my focus on HIM then I too can experience the characteristics of God. It is only because I have the Holy Spirit dwelling in me and I have Jesus interceding on my behalf that I am able to reflect the character of God. Many times people who have come to our messy, lived in home, whether they are repairmen, friends, or family they make a point to say “I feel so peaceful and calm here” or “I sense peace in your home”. That is definitely not anything that we have done, in and of ourselves, but it is because we are adopted into God’s family and we are heirs to His eternal kingdom. As a child, my home life was very volatile, my dad was very unhappy, contentious, depressed and angry a lot of the time. I had a very poor example as to how to act and live my life. Now, as an adopted child of God, I have an amazing example to follow. I am not perfect but I know because my Abba father is the Prince of Peace, I can live in peace and have a home that gives peace and comfort to all that come and have a wonderful marriage with my husband because our marriage is an entwined cord of me, Bill and Jesus. I am so grateful that when people come to our home the first thing they notice is the peace the feel and they do not notice the dust bunnies hopping by or the dust on the piano that is sadly so thick sometimes that I can write my weekly memory verse in it or love notes to my husband. John 14:27 tells me “Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.” I live at peace because “The Prince of Peace” calls me his own and that is more than enough for reason for me. 🙂

A21/P31-30 Days of Prayer

3 Oct

I have been asked by Proverbs 31 Ministries to partner with the A21 Ministry to pray for 31 days to make an big impact on bringing an end to human trafficking. Today, along with the prayers given I have been asked to pray and share my prayer with you all.

Gracious Heavenly Father,
I am in awe at how amazing and mighty you are-that you called all things into being and continue to care for each and every part of what you have created. Above all the things you have created-people-my fellow sisters and brothers-are your most treasured creation. You have adopted us as heirs to your eternal kingdom (Romans 8:1) Some have not received this gift and not only have not received it but are persecuting your precious creations-men, women and children. I ask Lord that you will hear the cries of these men, women and children and bring an end to this horrendous way of life for them.(Exodus3:7) I ask that they feel your love despite their circumstances. I ask you to put a hedge of protection around all the A21 workers so that they can save as many as possible and work to change the worlds view on human trafficking. I ask that those who are responsible will be held accountable and be punished for their acts. I ask Lord that the hearts of the abusers be crushed, softened and turn to you. You took Saul,a tremendous persecutor of Christians and used him for mighty things (Acts 9:1-22)-I ask that you do this with these people who are persecuting men, women and children all over the world. Your Word tells us that you desire that none should perish( 2 Peter 3:9) -my flesh wants these persecutors to burn in hell but my Spirit tells me that your wish is that none should perish so I ask that as they are held accountable that the scales would fall from their eyes and they will turn from their wicked ways and turn to you, the one true God.
Lord, your Word says in Matthew 7:7 “”Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.” I am asking you Lord to put an end to human trafficking, I am seeking you in this and asking you to open the doors for each person involved with A21 to walk in bold confidence knowing you go before them preparing the way. I pray with no doubt in my heart that you are Jehovah-Elohim–the God of Power and might and Jehovah-Makeh–the God who punishes sin and Jehovah-Tsidkenu–the Lord -our righteousness and Jehovah-El-Olam–the everlasting God. You word is the same yesterday, today and forever and I am leaning on your word and promises today. Lord, finally, if there is anything you would have me do in addition to praying for the mission of A21 and all involved I ask that you show me and give me your strength and power to say yes to whatever you call me to do.
In your precious Son Jesus’ name I pray,